6:07 PM

4 Ninos

Posted by Sam

Last night we had 4 of our precious little boys run away. Im going to just type my journal entry from last night because it shows what was going through my head through all of this.

Tonight we had 4 of our boys run away around 8:15Pm. Luby, Brian, Rudy, adn Fitto bolted out the bathroom door and ran. After about 20 minutes{ though it seemed like hours} went by of searching the property and no luck, JT and I got into the back of the truck as Jen drove us out to the main road and we searched. After getting a ways away from the property we saw some men out on thier porch so we slowed and asked if they has seen 4 ninos going this way, and they had{finally some hope!} so we kept driving and searching. What seemed like hours past, and still no sign of our boys, knotts are forming in my stomach, we saw more people out so once again we stopped and asked if they had seen 4 ninos walking this way, and they said they had just saw them going this way, and they couldnt be too much further up. So we went speeding down the road frantically searching the sides of the road. We finally saw what looked like our sweet boys on the side of the road with their thumbs in the air trying to hitch a ride, as we approached we realized it was exactly who we had been searching for. So we stopped and JT and I jumped out of the back of the truck and grabbed our fear sticken boys, though Rudy tried to run, and put them all safely in the back of the truck and brought them home. When we got back we sat them down on the steps, and asked them if they really thought they could live on the 4 t-shirts that they had packed in their backpack, and where were they trying to get, and why did they leave? They informed us that Luby had said that they could go to El Salvador and make "easy money" so they obviously figured that would be good plans for their evening. After a lecture from Jen they were back in their beds leaving us to wonder what we had done wrong to make them want to leave especially when Luby worked so hard to get here. I later went to help get the girls to bed to find that Pamela was trying to escape as well. As I walked into the room I found Ashley cradeling her in her arms as Pamela is screaming aweful things{ and Ill spare you this part}. I found my way into my sweet little Maryuri's bed to lay with her and she wraps her sweet little arms around my neck and stares at me with those big brown eyes that make the troubles of the world just fade away, and I lay there thinking, "why cant it always be this easy? Why cant they all just stay this innocent?" I left the room for a few minutes to help get the rest of the kids in bed and when I returned I sat on the floor by Maryuri's bed, and Ashley starts singing Father God, as we sang, my sweet little Maryuri found her way to my lap, and lays her head on my shoulder, wrapped in a blanket, I held her as close as possible, as I lay there I could feel every breath she took into her little body and as Ashley and I sang Orphans of God tears welled up in my eyes as I held this little girl as close as I could possible get her. I sat there wondering...why would these boys wan to go to El Salvador to make money? I mean, really? But then I remembered, thats what they grew up with, begging on the street to make money. Something inside of me wanted to scream at the people who so badly have messed up these kiddos. They know more stuff than any 8-10 year old should know. But then again...Ive never been desperate, I dont know how far Id go if I were, maybe I would have my kids beg on the street, who knows.

Tonight was a night of fear, stess, heartache, but most of all a reminder that when we run from God he will always search for us until he finds us. We would greatly appreciate your prayers over these boys, and this house. Its going to be a rough week.

- sam

1 comments:

Anna said...

you made me cry. now, when i read it again and no one's around i'll cry a lot. those boys and pamela just break my heart to pieces. i'll be praying for them, jen, karen and the rest of the kids and workers at casa. i love you guys, and make sure to tell them that!
i hope you have a good day tomorrow, and take pictures of mario for me. =]
i love you and can't wait to see you thursday!